Monday, August 11, 2003
Bye everyone. I dont want this blog anymore! I'm comming back to xanga!
Bye blogger...
You just didnt impress me as much as xanga! Any of you who linked me can still link me through here! Thanks for reading. I just cant take this place anymore!
Friday, August 08, 2003
I don't know why. It's strange. But I feel alone. And in need of attention.
No, I'm not feeling sorry for myself, it's just that all the people I care about, have other people closer to them, and I'm distant.
And I feel like I'm just in the way and uneeded. Severly.
Am I just going through something strange? Or is something trying to tell me something?
Like when I want to talk, that other person doesn't really talk to me or listen because they're involved with someone else or in something else.
And sometimes they dont even notice I'm gone or not talking.
I know it sounds pathetic, I'm so sorry. But a point of a blog is expressing your feelings. I dont want or mean to feel this way but I do. And it sucks because I didnt used to be like this. I dont know what's happened.
...I already know my first few weeks at my school is going to be hell. :-( It's so freaking confusing. A and B days? What the hell????
And I'm alone there. Yep. I know no one. Everyone knows everyone else. I'm the loser kid with no one. How exciting high school will be! *sarcasm*
And I already dont like alot of people there....
...I dont know...
I guess I just dont like them today because I'm tired and grumpy. I got 6 hours of sleep. But at least I got to talk to Austin and OH! I get to see him today! YAY! *snoopy dance* He makes everything so much better! :-) *wants a hug*....
Aww man. Trish told me the other night that she might be MOVING!!! :-\ awwww...
my best friend!....
gone...
:-(
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
I'm really nervous about orientation tomorrow :-(
I dont' know that school at all. And I'm forced to spend 4 freaking hours alone there? Great.
This is a bunch of bull sh*t because I hate being alone in new places!! Ugh!
:-( I'm all scared and stuff! I wish someone could come with me! I'm dreading this so bad. I wish it got cancelled or something!! *prays* save my soul!!!!!
I'm stuck here with my little brother Tyler. I HATE babysitting. I have NO patience! Especially for him. He's so freaking annoying. Especially when he thinks he's funny! >:-o!!
I'm currently checking my email to see if I have anymore link exchanges!
.....Nope, I guess not. Though this link exchange thing is great! :-D!
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Sunday, August 03, 2003
Hi all.
I was supposed to see my boyfriend, Austin, today. But I didn't get to because I was supposed to take my little brother Tyler with me but I had to open my big mouth and bitch about taking him so they left me at home and didn't take me. :-(
I don't like my parents very much. But when they came back I apologized.
You know...
I'm not always okay.
I feel neglected and unwanted and uneeded alot. Like an outsider. When my boyfriend was sad the other night, he never told me, and I found out from someone else. And by the time I got to ask him why he was sad, someone already had the opportunity to cheer him up. :-\
That was what really made me sad.
And today I was crying because my dad was being mean, and he called and I SWEAR you can tell I was crying, but he didn't ask if I was ok, he didn't try to cheer me up, or anything. But just the other night he was helping other girls with their problems. It's like everyone thinks there's never anything wrong with me. Or that Austin just doesn't care enough about me as much as his friends or something, I don't know.
When I try to cheer him up, he doesn't even get a little cheered up. But whenever some other chic tries to, he's SOO happy.
